Today, I find myself tired! We visited friends yesterday and ate foods we don’t usually eat! Pickled Herring! I had never tried herring before, so this was a new experience! They were good I was surprised! We also had homemade chili, which was amazing. It was followed by a very small slice of pumpkin cake! Dan, my husband, also made and brought smoked Deviled Eggs! I love his deviled eggs! We ate those first! It was a good meal with friends.
The conversation was good, too! We discussed horses, golf carts, and RVs, among other topics!
However, some of the conversations reminded me of past traumas, of which I had put behind me! So, I thought! I searched my memories, while there and again when I returned home, because I was struggling with some of the details!
Discrepancies in my reality and another’s reality, simply didn’t make sense to my heart!
Separate realities are very real. What was painful for me to relive, was a delight for one of the guests!
How interesting! I am still pondering how to speak or live my truth, but protect another’s separate reality, too! If I am going to be around this person once in a while, I need to learn to either change the topic, walk away or not listen deeply to the conversation, even though the conversation directly involves my connection to my life as I knew it as well as a response of some sort.
Some memories, like the ones I remember while listening to the Canadian Geese, are positive and bring me joy! Other memories that have to do with the horse world I grew up in and past interactions with family members, honestly, cause me distress!
My head hurts, I am tired and my tummy has been churning! I wasn’t able to sleep very well last night! My heart has also been racing, from time to time!
Interestingly, I know all of these things, these symptoms, are a direct result of my thinking, in that moment and again now in this moment! I know that the best thing to do, is to let these thoughts go! Letting go is sometimes easier said than done, however!
However, letting the magical memories in, can and will, lift my spirits once again! I know that soon, the negative sad thoughts will disolve away. I will return to my calm, emotionally healthy self. My wisdom will return and I will magically know what to do and or say, when I am around this person again! I don’t have to know right now!
The story, the discrepancies and the pain aren’t happening today, in this moment, so why did they cause a reaction?
Why would it matter that people have separate realities?
How do you live your truth and also allow others to live their truth?
A few minutes ago, the Magic Glass image that appeared, while taking some pain medicine, is warm and loving! This image immediately helped me to bring my focus back to this moment in time! It has fortunately reminded me to live in and think about this moment, not in the past or even in the future!
I see a loving angelic human shape on the top left of this image! On the right, I see three whimsical horse images! My herd brings me incredible happiness. While with them in my mind or when with them in person, I am usually able to return to my heartspace very quickly! In this beautiful, loving energy, I can let go of what was and be my best for what is, today, in this moment in time!
What helps you, return to your heartspace?
Manifest a magical day!
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