Firelight Blessings: Meditation Day 13

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The following Meditation took place this morning, before I left my bed. One of these days, I will return to my meditations while I am sitting at the table and typing with my eyes closed. I am grateful for today's transmission, but it was not an easy one. I wrote about what I saw, felt and heard, but I did not write about everything in detail.

I listened to the Whale sounds again. It was intense. My mom came through. I was crying. The whales circled up, we were swimming to the right in a large circle. Flashbacks of trauma from my family that occurred throughout my life, appeared. I saw, felt and heard the yelling, fighting and control dramas as they played out. Visions of pain and sadness.

During the meditation, I realized why I had walked away from my family so many times, over the years. Self preservation. It was my way to heal, and to protect myself from experiencing more family trauma. I wasn't happy being alone (until I met Dan), so I always went back, at some point. This was the norm for this whale family, as it had been for mine.

I found myself thinking about each person in my immediate family. I looked at how they had also lived a traumatic life. I looked at my parents families and pondered those experiences. Some of their experiences were even more traumatic than what I grew up experiencing. I realized that because we had all experienced trauma, learned habits were learned through a fearful heart, not always a loving heart. We were all just doing the best that we could, given what we learned and experienced from a young age.

While swimming in the circle with the whales, I looked up. I saw an owl sitting in a branch, on a tree. It was watching us. "Be like the Owl! Watch from above. Don't join the drama, let it go... fly away. It is OK to fly away. No more pain, no more trauma! LET IT GO!"

I remember forgiving each of my immediate family members, for their part in hurting me, right before I released myself from that experience.

I put on a different soundtrack. Tibetan Singing Bowls, author Hoom Studio. I was pulled into a beautiful sound experience, that pulled me into a lovely, calm, peaceful place. I felt a calm energy float through and around my body. It was magical and magnificent.

When I finished, I thanked my team for peeling back another layer of the onion. I was able to start my day with more energy and a lot less physical pain and fatigue. (Yes, I took my vitamins, yesterday and today I even added zinc to the mix.).

After chores and playing with Onyx, I told Dan that I need to find a balance between my writing and my horsemanship goals. He asked me if I could do that. My honest answer was, "I don't know, but I think I need to figure out how to find a balance between my 2 passions!" He reminded me that 4 hours goes by in a flash for you. I agreed, it does! Why is it that I feel so compelled to write for so long? I can play that long with my horses, too! Interesting.

While peeling back the onion of your life, have you experienced a magical shift in your energy?

Have you been able to forgive others for their part in your traumatic experiences?

The owl in this meditation was stunning and wise, can you listen to and follow its important message?

Today's little miracle: I felt that I needed to include a picture of a singing bowl in this story. I have one, too! Though, I have not used it in a very, very long time. In fact, the box was rather dusty. I cleaned off the box, took out the singing bowl and cleaned it, too. As I was cleaning it, I heard my Angelic team mention two things I also needed to include in this picture. "Feather and owl." I knew which feather they were talking about. That was easy. I have lots of owls, though. I was not sure which one would work best for this. They did though, case as I pulled out the black cushion, to place the singing bowl on it, there under it was an owl necklace. This was an owl from my childhood. How interesting that it was with my singing bowl for all this time. At the moment, I don't remember putting them together, either. I consider this incredible coincidence to be a lovely example of angelic fairy dust lighting the way! Remember, there are no coincidences!

Manifest a magical day!