An Unexpected Dream Meditation.

 

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During the morning hours of Tuesday morning, I had a vivid dream. I am still thinking about it today so I decided it was time to write it down. 

I am asking my team to help me remember the important parts of this dream so I know that I am sharing the messages. 

During the dream, I remember seeing a man from my past. His name was even said, I hear it now and see his face. He was a manager of a real estate company that I once worked at. (for privacy reasons, I will not state it here.) He asked me what was going on at my parents property because there was a lot of black top being laid, like a huge parking lot. I said, I don’t know anything about that. I will find out. 

I decided to call my mom and talk to her. There was a moment when I remember asking myself if she had already crossed the veil or not. I decided that calling her was the right decision. I remember dialing my childhood phone number on a cell phone. She has not had that number for years and years. 

She answered, and I asked her about the black top. She said that she had moved, so she did not have any idea what was going on with the black top. I remember being shocked that she had moved. Our connection was not great, there was a loud TV show playing in my ear. I was yelling into the phone, so she could hear me. Her voice was faint, but I could make out bits and pieces. 

I asked her why she had not called me to let me know she was moving. I yelled, “I always help you move and set up your new place.” (Mom had moved a lot when she was on this side of the veil.) I vaguely remember her saying that she didn’t need anything this time. 

I asked her if she was in an apartment or a house. I asked her this several times, because the connection was breaking up, the sound of the TV seemed like it was getting louder and louder. 

She said that she thought it was a house, but it could have been a very large apartment. She said that it was beautiful and absolutely perfect for what she needed now. 

I felt at peace hearing her voice, but frustrated that our connection was so difficult because of the loud noise in my ear. 

The dream visited me throughout the day. I believe that this was an authentic visit from her to me, letting me know that she is indeed OK. 

She has been on my mind because her adorable little dog, Nabby, has been staying with us for a few days. He has lived with my son and daughter in law since my mother’s passing. Nabby has been so darn happy to be here with us. He dances around, like he did around my mom. I think that his lovely and strong connection to her, helped my mom to connect to me through this early morning dream. 

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Interestingly, I was also wearing a headband with a Bluetooth speaker. I turned on my phone and watched a YouTube video around 3 am, before falling back to sleep.. Apparently more and more videos continued playing the rest of the morning. The sound was coming into only one ear, because the second speaker was not working last night. The speaker for my right ear was working, but the left was not, last night. 

I take that as a sign, too. Because that left speaker had been working just fine when I went to bed Monday night… It was not working Tuesday night. I believe that the strong energy from beyond the veil, broke the wire to the left speaker, so I could hear my mom’s voice with my left ear. It was faint, but it was there. 

I am grateful to my team for sending me this gift. 

The message was clear, too!. She was sorry that she had not invited me to help with her last move. I didn’t help move her material possessions because I was incredibly hurt. Our family has always had discourse, but we became even more divided after her passing. I had hoped we could repair and connect again, but I was wrong. She had apparently told each of us very different things over the years. These words did not bring about repair, instead it caused more pain and negative energy. Unfortunately, the  division still exists to this day for various reasons. 

I am incredibly grateful for her apology from the other-side of the veil. I wish that repair could have occurred before her passing, as it did with my dad, but given that I am able to connect to my angelic team, this connection was a heart healing one. 

Manifest a magical day!

Happy Spaces and Flowing Energy!

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I have been busy creating happy spaces within our home. We started with the main floor last year. We completed both bathrooms during the winter. We sorted and moved furniture around in the basement just in time, to spend time down there during a strong storm, that hit our area hard.

This past month, I have been playing in our largest bedroom upstairs and the room we call the spirit room.

I wanted space in the bedroom to exercise. I also wanted my cloths organized and easy to access. I am so pleased with how it turned out. As an extra bonus, I can also play with my curls in there, too! I love the new space. I love how it flows and is easy to do all of the things I wanted to be able to do in that space. I find myself happy in this space. Before I felt frustrated and always in a hurry trying to find what I was looking for. Get in, get out, was my reaction to the energy in that room. Now I find myself lingering as I put my clothes away or when I am choosing what to wear for the day.

The Spirit Room is now also an office... I moved the desk my mom and I both have used over the years, into that room when we got it back from her apartment. It was the table that caused me so much pain, after my mom died, with the comments my brother made about it and my moms wishes for it, at a family gathering. The last family gathering I have attended. I was hurt and so disappointed. Down right angry with both my mom and my brother. His comments stabbed me through the heart, in ways that I hadn't expected to feel.

Fortunately, I am feeling much better now. So much better that I was able to pull the table away from the corner it had been in, since we brought it home. When I did, it seemed to come alive.

I could feel it calling me, to use it for my next adventure. "ZOOM ZOOM" was the message a few months ago.

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Interestingly, last night, a friend asked me if I knew anyone who was a reading specialist. LOL. She is looking for someone to teach her son to read "ONLINE". This may be something to explore, as when I was setting up the table, I said to myself, "Wow, I have room to 'TUTOR' someone."

"Wait, I want to do ONLINE activities, not in person work."

The table may want to do in person tutoring again, but I don't!

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My mom was a tutor for a time at this table. It was also a table I used for doing book work for the "horse business" when I was going to take over that business. I bought it from her after my dad died. It lived here in my home for years. She wanted it back to use as a kitchen table when she moved into a tiny apartment. I was promised it back. She never told anyone else that, though. She apparently only told my brother "Deb has been given enough, let the grand kids choose what they want, first! The table was apparently included in that directive!" Mind you, this was not written down, nor did I have a clue that this was what she was thinking. She always asked me to go through everything with her and help her to choose, who should get what. However, Covid hit and we never did this. We talked about still doing it off and on all that last summer, too! I just kept saying, "Lets focus on getting you well, we can do that later!"

I have been feeling my mom's energy a lot lately, as I have been organizing and rearranging furniture. It has been healing for me to feel her helping me to create a warm and inviting space. Not creating a space for her, as I had done for years and years, but I was now creating a space that feels good to my heart and soul. (Dan's too!)

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The universe has been busy delivering all kinds of magical experiences for us. One of them is better internet. If you know me, you know our home sits in an area that has poor internet service. Our phones work, but not all of the time. "Can you hear me now?" is a common phrase around here. It has taught me to be patient and calm during frustrating moments while teaching during Covid, while attending zoom meetings and while talking to people on the phone.

Interestingly, an offer came in the mail for us to sign up for fiber optic internet about 6 months ago. It is not yet installed, but it is being worked on in the surrounding area each and every week. The tubes are all in the ground on our street, next they will run the cables through the tubes to each of the boxes they put in a few weeks ago. It is so exciting. We should have a consistent internet system installed and usable by fall.

I have been seeing my birthday numbers everywhere. Encouragement to follow the feel, to keep creating, to move into and remain in heartfelt joy as I feel my way through organizing, creating and playing in this happy space that a home should be.

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Retirement has been a time of recovery. A process of healing from painful thoughts and words. Recovery from burn-out and trauma. A time to feel joy and happiness. A time to do what touches my heart and brings me joy. I am forever grateful for this moment in time. I welcome the next moment in time, into my life as it arrives, too! May it be filled with magical fairy dust and love!

Manifest a magical day!

April Gratitude Practice: Manifesting a Dream

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Today I am grateful that I listened to a workshop gathering about dreams. As I was listening to a woman talk about how she has created her life from a feeling she clearly felt as a little girl, my heart was touched. She is a lovely mature woman now, but she lives her life from the feeling she felt when she was a light hearted child. 

She plans her life in the moment while she follows this feeling. She never, ever plans for something more than a year in advance. Even then a year can be too far out for her. 

I have been a planner for most of my life, yet if I am honest about how I have actually lived my life, I must admit, that everything that has been created, has been created in a moment when I too, followed a very deep, "alive" feeling. 

I listened to my heart, I followed that calling, that feeling of inspiration to do this, or to do that. I have not usually know or understand why I have felt drawn to do what I have done, but when I have gotten out of the way, let any fears go and listened to what my heart is guiding me to do, the outcome has been magnificent. 

I have experienced an incredibly healing year. I have followed the urge to write, I have followed the urge to play with my horses, I have followed the urge to share various life experiences on Live events hosted by my friend. I have piece by piece, moment by moment found my balance in life again. 

I did not talk very much today during the live event. I listened deeply to the hearts of many. I listened to their truth. I listened with my heart, my soul and my being at a much deeper level. 

It was as if my heart could feel their dreams, as they talked about navigating their way from being inspired through love, to do or create something beautiful from that inspired thought.  While they shared from their heart, they lit up the screen. I felt goosebumps move through my body as I too was touched. 

Dan and I met because we were both inspired to put an ad into a newspaper. We followed that inspiration. I let fear get in the way, but he did not. From there we manifested living here on our farm that we call Whispering Hearts. We continue to manifest our lives in a way that feeds our soul. 

My son once told me that I needed to try on a lot of "Coats" before I found the one that fit. Yes, that is true, I dated a number of people before Dan and I fit. Today one of the presenters mentioned that sometimes we buy a pair of shoes that do not fit. 

I am guilty of wearing poor fitting shoes for far too long because I bought or created them. I will wear them until they fall off. 

No, it is far better to try them, wear them, feel them, but return them if they are not fitting into your life the way you had intended them to feel.  Let it go. Return to the feeling of being "alive!" Allow that feeling of love and insight to guide you the next and highest best outcome for your soul. Feed your soul! Feel the Joy. Be in the moment! 

Distractions happen. 

I have my daughters dogs for the next 4 days. They have been incredibly distracting since they arrived. They whine, they want out, they want in, they lay down for a moment, they think they hear something they should respond to, they lay down. I am on high alert, too! 

Each time I felt distracted, I smiled, because that is life. It too is part of the journey! If you have a dream that was inspired and you found yourself distracted, for a moment or a lifetime of moments, let them go, return to your true inner child, full of love, joy and inspiration! Make the sandcastles. Dream the dream. Follow the butterflies and rainbows! Let the dream guide you, even when you are not sure what the dream is. 

Currently, I am feeling and seeing fragments of a dream or dreams which I cannot yet put into words. Coaching, horses, gatherings of people on zoom, in person or online play days, a "Riding Shed/RV Shed. trails, connections with new and old friends... and more!

I will feel my way to the magical manifestation of my dreams as I feed my soul in each moment!

What feeds your soul? Are you living a dream that feeds your soul or are you trying on a "coat" that you could or should let go of, because it is not feeding your soul? 

Can you find the feeling that causes you to feel alive and joyful? 

Feed your soul! Only you can know what that feels like. Only you can zero in on that feeling! As you do, it will change the course of your life, in magnificent and magical ways!

Manifest a magical day!

April Gratitude Practice: Dad

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Last night I had a crying dream. I was talking to my mom. I was sobbing and crying.

I was sleeping, but tears were streaming and my nose was full. My eyes are still a bit watery, hours later.

Fortunately, my dad pushed his way into the dream. He took my hands, faced me eye to eye and said, "I always believed in you, always have and always will!"

Wow, was that ever powerful!

I quit crying, and fell back into a deep sleep. I slept until morning without any more night terrors.

I am incredibly grateful for my dad's powerful angelic energy, I am grateful that he came through in my dream and I am grateful that I remembered this very important message.

"I always believed in you, I always have and always will!"

Manifest a magical day!

April Gratitude Practice: Horse Connection!

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Onyx smelled my hair tonight while I was pulling his hay apart at his feet, (I have a new shampoo, but it's been a couple of weeks since I started using it. I was however thinking about cutting my hair shorter for the summer, as I was walking out to do chores!) He must have been pondering my thoughts!

A few minutes later, I had moved away from him. He proceeded to leave his hay, to ask me if he could, just maybe, have a treat, while I was scooping his stall?

Treat manners are soooo important! I love how polite he has become!

Our connection makes me smile! I am so incredibly grateful for our connection!

Do you have a connection with a loved one that needs no words?

Manifest a magical day. Remember to feel your way while looking for fairy dust and unicorns!

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April Gratitude Practice: Breakthrough

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Yesterday, I had a huge breakthrough during a moment, which was almost a trance, while I was dragging the outdoor arena. I realized at that moment, that not only was I judged by my family as a person in everything I did and how I was as a parent, but my ex was too!

I told my daughter that it is a very good thing that we married other people, because of all of the toxic judgment that we were both under and because of that, we were hard on each other, too!

I had not realized that we were both unhealthy when we were married. I honestly thought it was just me. Both of us came from unhealthy families. I knew that, but I had not realized deep within my soul, that it is a very good thing that we found healthier relationships to help raise our children.

I can forgive myself and him for our divorce. I can celebrate that our children grew up to be the best version of themselves, even though our marriage ended. The judgement from others continued, but we both had someone in our lives to shield us from what it had been like when we were together.

For this deeper understanding, I am incredibly grateful. I am healthier today than I was yesterday. I am experiencing compassion that I have not experienced before toward us both.

I had a healing dream last night about my ex-husband. I don't remember details, but I know it was healing and full of compassion. The compassion erased the judgement and pain away. It was a beautiful experience.

Manifest a magical day. Watch for fairy dust and unicorns.

PS. Image and I played online yesterday. I rewarded her for every single try to go left. I started with rewarding her nose looking left. Then I rewarded her when 1 foot started to move left. I started over after each reward. Before I knew it, she was able to walk one half way around me with a calm, quiet energy. NO DUST. No fear. No judgement. We worked together from a deep connection and compassion for each other. She did not push my bubble and I did not push her bubble.

At feeding time last night and again this morning, she was able to go left without a halter or lead rope attached. It felt beautiful. Dan video taped it, we will see if it looked beautiful, too!

Image and I had a similar breakthrough, too! How interesting and magical that both my inner work and my outer work coincided.

April Gratitude Practice: Beautiful Weather

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It was a stunning day to be outdoors today! Summer temps, and no wind! Just stellar!

We cut wood, dragged the arena, and dragged the pens. Dan cleaned up all of the poop and ground hay off of their pens, too. I even had time to play with Image! I decided to 'restart' her. I taught her how to circle me to the left, like it was her very first time doing it.

I put a halter on her and snapped the long rope onto it. We walked calmly together to the place we had been circling, but we did it without the hay. I did have lots of treats, though. She had been begging me for treats, so I knew I had her attention and what she was looking for. I proceeded to ask for the tiniest thought of going left. She tipped her head. She got a treat. I backed her up a wee bit. Waited a moment for her to ask me a question. When we were connected again. I asked her to think about going left, again. Each time she offered a wee bit more. Her head, her head and right foot, her head, right foot, neck and left foot, her head, neck, front feet, shoulders and one hind foot, etc. Before we knew it she could do a half circle to the left without any dust or fuss. I was so proud of her.

I am so very grateful for the beautiful weather and for Images try today!

Manifest a magical day. Remember to watch for fairy dust and fancy unicorns!

April Gratitude Practice: Daughter

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My lovely daughter came to visit today with her dogs. It's so much fun to have them come for a visit and a run. We will be dog sitting in a couple of weeks, so we are trying to get her dog daisy and Tipper used to each other before they come to our house for 4 nights. Blue knows our home well, he has been here many times, but Daisy has never spent the night here before. 

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Every time they visit, they settle down a little bit more and Tipper does too. I think we will be fine when the weekend arrives, however, I will be glad when they go home. Tipper has shifted from being a pack dog, to being a really amazing single dog. She loves to hang out with us and was totally exhausted when my daughter and her dogs left. 

Our talk was a deep one. I am so grateful for the insights my daughter shared with me. It's important, even though we tear up, because healing occurs in layers. I am so very grateful for my daughter's wisdom. She is an amazing young woman. I am so grateful to have her in my life. She is understanding, wise, strong, and beautiful on the inside and out. She mentioned that we see things from different perspectives. Both of our perspectives are valid. 

 

My heart is full after I visit with her. May your heart be full after you visit with your adult children, too!

Manifest a magical day. Watch for glittering fairy dust and fancy unicorns!

April Gratitude Practice: Toxic Judgement

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I am grateful for this ongoing learning about the differences between being compassionate and being judgmental.

(Trigger warning - the dream was not PG)

Last night's dream was all about a huge snake or serpent. It was a toxic poisonous snake or serpent. In my dream I heard the name, but at the moment it escapes me. Someone killed it, it may have been me.

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The dead snake laid on a table. Several cats came up and started to smell it. They tried to eat it, but could not because it was covered with a very thick armor, like an armadillo. I decided to help the cats out. I pulled off the armor. When one of the cats was going to eat the head. (I remember that it was licking the forked tongue.) I did not let it lick or eat the head. I cut the head off and took it away.

So, was I being judgmental of the snake/serpent or compassionate for the cats in my dream?

Was I being both?

When is it OK to get rid of toxicity and how could it be OK to kill to do it? (OH MY) Is this the meaning of this dream or did it mean to cut the ties with others, through a simulation and chord cutting experience? (I believe it was the second - chord cutting is a common practice among light workers.)

Manifest a magical day. Notice the fairy dust and unicorns!

April Gratitude Practice: Compassion 2

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Last night I had a dream that I felt at a soul level. I was laying with several horses and foals. The feeling of their closeness and their compassion was palpable.

I woke up and thought about a picture I have of an Arabian Mare with her foal living inside a tent with her humans.

Mares taught me a lot throughout my lifetime. They love deeply and are extremely protective of their foals and many times the people they love, too!

I had asked for more information regarding the message I had the other night the habit of being judgmental vs the habit of being compassionate. In that Dream, the message was you can't do both at the same time. The conversation has been, yes you can do both like you would with a child. Interestingly the mares with their foals came in last night.

Is being protective the same as being judgmental?

I am grateful to be receiving these messages. I am pondering over their meaning and my interpretation.

Manifest a magical day! (Look for fairy dust and unicorns!)

April Gratitude Practice: Compassion

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I had a dream last night that was personal, but the message was so spot on.

If one is being compassionate, they can't be judgmental! Or visa-versa, if a person is being judgmental, they can't be compassionate!

I am grateful for this dream message full of wisdom!

Last night, I gave Onyx his hay and asked for him to circle me. My ask was as light as a feather. I pointed one finger, and used my thoughts. He quietly circled me both directions! It was the best possible birthday present!

I am grateful that this was his gift to me! It was so darn special!

Manifest a magical day!

April Gratitude Practice: National Unicorn Day and My Birthday!

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Today is national Unicorn Day and my 66th birthday. I am grateful that my birthday is on this day. It is magical and reminds me to believe in myself as well as the universe.

I am grateful that I am doing exercises each day that helped me to move through the sadness I am feeling today, because this day was my late friend's birthday, too! It is her first heavenly birthday.

I am grateful to a new friend, who lost her best friend a year ago. We met at the memorial I went to for her. She was bonded to her friend, much like my friend and I were. She sent me a PM today, wishing me a happy birthday. I had privately reached out to her, when it was her birthday, as I could tell, it was a tough day for her, without her dearest friend, to wish her a happy birthday. I understood the wave she was riding, but I understand it better, today. I believe our friends are cheering us both with a lovely glass of red wine!

I am ever so grateful that our friends are still near and have joined our individual Angelic Teams. It is certainly not the same, but it is a comfort to know that they are close by.

Manifest a magical day!

April Gratitude Practice: Eclipse Energy

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I am grateful that Dan and I were home yesterday when the herd was playing. During their play a fence line was broken between two of them. We saw it, I was able to get a few pictures of them before and during it, as I was taking a picture of the Silver Maple tree at the time. 

I am grateful that yesterday I had a clearer vision of what I can do with the horses and others.  It might be the perfect draw to pull me out of retirement, along with my writing. Teaching adults and students mindfulness and encouraging self discovery, with one of the horses, during a zoom meeting, was what I did with my students, during online teaching. I absolutely loved it.

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I am grateful to a Social Media friend. She told me that I am always so positive. That sure made my day. I have struggled with being positive for part of the last 18 months, but because I have been focusing on gratitude and my spiritual growth, I have been feeling a lot more positive. It was nice to have someone notice it, too!

I am grateful for the energy of the Eclipse as it passes by our area, while I am writing this post.  I am sending our planet Love, Peace and Harmony. 

Today, during the height of the Eclipse, I focused on gratitude. What did you spend the Eclipse energy on? 

Manifest a magical day!

April Gratitude Practice: Dream Messages

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Last night I had a dream about a Mountain Lion. It was perched in the tree right outside our front window! A big male! I took a few amazing pictures of it, as it moved this way and that!

Fyi, I live in the Midwest, we rarely see or hear about them being here! Though, we did see one walking with its tail high in the air, many years ago. The horses alerted us to it. We saw it walking through our woods, next to the back fence line, with our binoculars. We stopped and looked at each other wondering if we saw what we thought we saw. That was wild.

Back to the dream. I noticed 3 women sitting at our picnic table, (currently, I don't even have a picnic table.) They were watching the Lion and taking notes. They had a dark grey van. It was parked on the street. It looked like a weather tracker van. It has a big antenna on the roof.

Since there was a collar on the ML, they could follow it. (Hmm, I had watched a video late yesterday evening about horses with trackers.)

I started talking to one woman in particular. I remember that she had a lovely face. I mentioned that I was a teacher. She told me she was very worried about the possibility of a teacher's strike. She didn't know what was going to do with her kids if there was a strike?

I said, "They will ask all of the retired teachers, like me, to return to work." This information seemed to settle her down.

At this point the Mountain Lion jumped out of the huge Silver Maple tree and took off.

One of the other women said that it was time to go, since the Lion was on the move! We said goodbye. I thought, "Why was there a lion in my tree?"

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I looked up the spiritual meaning of Mountain Lion. Leadership, new adventure and transformation!

My dear late friend and I shared the same birthday, which is coming up. She lived in Mountain Lion country in the Black Hills. She was a teacher and horsewomen. I believe she may have been the Mountain Lion and possibly, also the main women whom I talked to! She loved the lions!

I am not sure what the message about coming out of retirement meant, but I have been pondering doing something with the horses having to do with mindfulness and self discovery. I see myself doing this during a zoom meeting with anyone who is interested. I did something similar with the herd during our online teaching experience. I loved it.

I am grateful for this dream! It was a strong, graceful and peaceful dream.

Have you recently experienced a dream that felt like a message from your Angelic Team?

How did you feel about the message?

Manifest a magical day!