I was talking to a good friend the other day. I asked her to give me her opinion about a career change I am thinking about making. Her comment surprised me.
She said, "I have no idea why I think about this Debbie, as it is none of my business, but I feel you need to write!"
We were talking on the phone, a tear formed in one eye, tingles shot up the back of my neck and I said, "I only seem to be called to write when my life is filled with emotional, crazy drama! A 'Smooth Sailing' life gives me nothing to write about. I am happy now and life is good, it is perfect! It is the way it should be, but, because of that I really have nothing to say, much less have something exciting to write about."
I have been pondering this conversation for a couple of days. It has been my habit to write, to write volumes in fact, when I am struggling, frustrated, and at my wits end about something that is going on in my life. I must admit, I once led a life full of dramatic events. I was use to living a life full of ups and downs. I was emotionally unbalanced, my emotional fitness was not at it's best. However, I thought that was totally "normal" and thrived upon it. Or, so I thought. Until now.
Interestingly, at the moment I am at peace with my life. Life is running smoothly, I am able to meet each day without a lot of drama, fear or worry. I am becoming a rather centered RBE (right brained extrovert - a Parelli term).
Coincidentally, my horse Ollie is an RBE, at a clinic last summer when Ollie looked at me as though he had no idea what I was asking of him, my instructor told me that Ollie knew the patterns as an RBE, but now that he was using the thinking side of his brain, (acting more like an LBI, Left Brained Introvert) I needed to teach that side of his brain the patterns too. My response was, "Oh my, that makes perfect sense."
Maybe it is the same for me in relationship to my writing! If this is true, then I must teach my confident peaceful self how to write when life is going perfectly.
To write from this peaceful emotionally balanced place of LOVE and contentment is a novel idea to my soul. I am not flat lined, however, I am not living a life on a major adrenaline rush, which is spurred from fear either. I am simply living life, doing what feels like the best option to do in each and every moment. I am living from a different vibration. I react differently to events that once caused fear and worry to arrive. I see these events as opportunities for practice, rather then how I once saw them as possibilities for failure or explosions.
Last night, we had a fabulous opportunity to play an extreme friendly game with the horses. The air was still, the clouds were high, I was in the house, my husband opened the door and hollered in, "I need your help, there is a HUGE balloon in the sky, they need to land in our pasture! The horses are going crazy!" The door slammed, Dan flew toward the barn, the horses were running in circles in their dry lots, heads in the air with their tails flagging!
I calmly slipped on my shoes, took a deep breath as I grabbed my treat bag with my blue Savvy String attached and proceeded to go outside. Above the arena was the balloon. I walked with confidence to the gate, telling myself and Dan that this was a perfect opportunity to play the friendly game with the horses. The balloon was making a loud hissing noise as the pilot adjusted the flow of air. I glanced from the balloon to the horses, knowing that I needed to be the leader for them. I told Dan to head to Ruby's pen, as she was alone. "Go stand with her so she knows she is ok and be CALM!"
I proceeded to move between the balloon and the herd. I noticed Ollie's eyes were bulging from fear, he was trying to get away from the balloon. Hawk was checking to see if he could go under the strand of webbing we use as a gate between the dry lot and the front pasture. Duke, Charm and Jewel were dancing in their dry lots, bucking, kicking and rearing... a very different energy in their pens. Downright playful in fact. In the past, I would have tried to calm my RBE's, but today I decided to be curious and interested in the balloon for my LB horses.
Since, I was in Jewel and Charm's pen now, I asked them to come with me to check out the balloon as it traveled over and away from the dry lots. They followed my leadership and came with me. Charm was licking and chewing, Jewel was watching intently but with a sense of calmness. Ruby was standing with Dan.
Charm and I stood together on top of the small hill, as the balloon landed at the far edge of our property. We watched together, as the air was let out of the sails, I felt a rush of awe come over me. Awe that my horses followed my leadership and were calmer, more confident. Curiosity was the feeling I felt rather then fear. WOW, what a fabulous "extreme friendly game" we were able to share last night.
Remaining calm, confident and curious allowed my herd and husband to follow my lead! It sure is Interesting to see what can result from living life from a place of "Smooth Sailing".
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