Bright Color, Please!

When life becomes the unexpected, what do you do?

Getting sick at the beginning of a life changing opportunity has caused me to feel feelings I had not wanted to feel again. I feel sad, I feel a dream opportunity has been lost, again.

I am trying to see the positive in this moment. I am looking for that glimmer of gold that comes from looking deep into a situation... There must be a nugget here for me to hold onto!

I was so looking forward to starting Charm with Farrah's guidance. I was so looking forward to playing, working and writing about my experience. I had to give that up because I could not breath.

I was talking to a friend today and in the conversation I said, "I wonder if I had taken some allergy meds before I left, if I would have gotten sick?" Hind-site!

18 months ago a Dr suggested I start taking allergy medication by March 15th. He thought that if I did this I might avoid the spring cold/asthma attacks that plagued me most years. He is the one who told me that I am suffering from allergy induced asthma, until than I was always told it was a cold induced asthma. It never occurred to me that I may suffer an allergy/asthma attack this time of year. I don't know what exactly caused it either. Which is also frustrating! Was it this, this or that? Was it a combination of things? How do I avoid this in the future?

All I know is that today,  I am sad, disappointed and frustrated because I was forced to give up on a dream opportunity.

As my body heals from this "event" I will find another "door" to open somewhere, which will lead me to another adventure, even better than what was behind the door that was just shut. Now, I just need to start looking for that door.... If you see it, please paint it a very BRIGHT color so I don't miss it!